Nick Gehlfuss knows the value of struggle
Published 12:00 am Thursday, November 19, 2015
- Elizabeth Sisson / NBC via Tribune News ServiceNick Gehlfuss plays the chief ER resident on NBC’s “Chicago Med.” Gehlfuss spent many years broke in New York, questioning if acting was the right path for him.
BEVERLY HILLS, Calif. — Actor Nick Gehlfuss didn’t earn a master of fine arts degree for nothing. When he was a struggling actor in New York he had it all figured out — at least when it came to his stomach.
“This Italian restaurant, they had $1.75 spaghetti on Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday. I went there for dinner,” he said.
“Thursday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday, I played my guitar and sang for money at two Irish pubs and a couple restaurants. And they secured meals for me there. So I had all my dinners,” he said.
“The romance and struggle you find in all that,” he said. “And most people say that was the most exciting times in their lives. And how could it not be?”
Well, maybe. But this is a pretty exciting time for Gehlfuss as well. He’s costarring in NBC’s new “Chicago Med,” the latest spinoff of “Chicago Fire” and “Chicago P.D.” series.
He’s already ministered to the wounded on the latter shows, as a way of introducing some of the characters on the new series. In fact, Gehlfuss — whose mother and sister are both nurses — has been shadowing doctors at a local hospital memorizing their body language, bedside manner and gravitas.
“I’m literally able to walk around with these doctors, and I play a med student until I have to tell the patients I’m acting when they ask me to turn down the oxygen and check their pulse or apply the stethoscope.”
While things are blooming now, it wasn’t always so. When Gehlfuss left his home in Cleveland for New York he didn’t know a soul and wasn’t sure he’d spent seven years in higher education for the right reason.
“I hit rock bottom and was broke. I didn’t have any money. I’d been there for year and half … living by myself, and had no friends. In a city with 8 million people they say you can feel extremely lonely. No one’s going to make you work on yourself except you. So at one point I said, ‘Should I be doing this? Am I built for this?’ I was feeling pretty down,” he said.
“Now in hindsight I realize you have to get to that point. You should question everything you’re doing. What’s wrong with questioning it and really almost quitting?”
Two people sustained him. His manager, who stuck by him and the new woman in his life, Lilian Matsuda. She worked in hotel marketing and not only helped him emotionally, she aided financially. When he made the drastic move to L.A., she came with him, and now they’re both in Chicago, said Gehlfuss. He describes Lilian as an “angel” and they are engaged.
“If you don’t get to those (low) points, you don’t get a view from every angle you possibly can. So the darkness that we experience as an actor — hitting rock bottom and going all around and being thrown around like a rag doll — (it’s) the unpredictability that an actor I believe must embrace. Or it will force you to embrace.”
Gehlfuss, who’s costarred in “The Newsroom,” “Shameless” and “Longmire,” correlates his work to his life. “My personality is I enjoy constant change and mixing it up. I get bored too easily. With acting, you don’t. The thing I love about it the most is that becoming a better actor really means I’m becoming a better person.”
But what about the rejection actors experience? “If you want to look at it that way, rejection is a very negative word. If you put that in your mind, it doesn’t help you. It’s not helping. Because most of the time you have no idea why you couldn’t obtain a role,” he said.
“It could be because I have red hair. It could be because I’m 6-2 and not 6 foot,” he said.
He comes by that honestly because when he was a kid he was very outgoing. “I think I always wanted to be everyone’s friend,” he said.
“I didn’t have a core group of friends. When I was in college, I wasn’t in a fraternity or anything. I always wanted to jump around to all different types of cliques. I wanted to make people laugh, too. I’ve done mostly dramatic work, but I’d still love to do comedy at some point. I was not shy. As a child, I would go up to anybody, which probably worried my parents to a certain degree. I guess I just wanted to connect. That’s another thing about being an actor — not guaranteed — but for me it forced me to connect. In a world with technology and a lot of stuff going on, it reaffirms the power of connecting with someone.”